By Gloria Query, “Glo” gloriasroom@aol.com February 24, 2008
Gloria Query in her backyard Jungle, because she never got to the Survivor Jungle LOL!!!!!
I have my own opinions of Lynne Spillman, because once I wrote a letter To Mark Burnett Productions of why I thought I should be considered for the show. In my letter I stated that I had tried out for the show at that time 13 times. I also talked about my family and all the hardships that had fallen upon us. I talked about losses of husband, 2 brothers and a sister who had just been diagnosed with cancer. I wrote this letter after a finale show back in 2006. I had no idea that my letter would fall into the hands of Lynne Spillman, casting director of Survivor. To be truthful with you I couldn’t have even told you the name of Lynne Spillman because I never knew her or her position as casting Director of Survivor. I had done like everyone else in the world or so I thought. I kept a low profile and just sent in applications and tryout tapes and never tried any more than that strategy. Being quiet never did me any good, but being a loud tooter hasn’t done me any good either.
But, after getting the call of interest from Lynne Spillman, I guess my spirits were lifted because I had been through so much tragedy. I was just happy to be happy for the short moment and the big dream I had and wanted so much. But, as I said before, my family had been through so much tragedy, and it was about to happen at the worst time in my life, right in the middle of my big dream for Survivor. When I wrote the letter to Survivor, I had just got the call about my oldest sister Mary Kath having terminal cancer, right during the finale show. I wrote my letter, and poured my heart out about my family and about my dream to be on Survivor to change things for my children and mother who was also terminally ill.
After the call from Lynne, I was flying on cloud nine. It was time for “ME” to be happy and do something for my family who had been through so much. I don’t know what happened to me but I came to life and my wings sprouted full force. My playful nature came back to life. I didn’t know it, but my playful nature and antics were going to destroy my dream forever. Lynne called me several times, telling me things she needed such as a video tape to go with application I had sent. Sometimes she called just letting me know she had received them through the mail. I shared a few things with her and we laughed and back to her work load she would go and I would continue to dream for the next call, the important call that I hoped I would make the cut for Survivor. During all this I became happy for the first time in years. I sent her and her cast flowers for lifting my spirits and she called singing me a song on my answering machine thanking me for pretty flowers. I felt anyone who could lift my spirits deserved something beautiful, but as usual everything I would do would backfire. I sent her a funny picture of me saying I was her next ultimate survivor, standing in jungle plants waving at her LOL! I mailed her some things about me in newspapers and etc. Two weeks later my sister died after Lynne called me. I called leaving 2 messages to Lynne that Mary Kath had died. I believe Lynne was on the road with casting calls. A month or so went by and I finally heard from Lynne. She left a message on a Friday that she wanted to talk to me. I got off work, heard the message when I got home and was so excited to hear from her. I left several messages for her that weekend but never heard from her. There were several times where she had actually called me from her cell phone in the past. That Monday I had to do many things so all I had was my cheap Track phone with me. It kept ringing but I got no response, I just knew it had to be Lynne. So, I would be out doing errands and went bike riding and called her several times. Well, she finally picked up and was mad as fire at me for calling so many times. She said she didn’t have time for it and she just let me have it with both barrows. She said sorry Gloria but you didn’t make the cut. That was it just short and sweet, no sorry to hear about your sister dying, no question of how are you doing. The fun and laughing Lynne Spillman I once had experienced was gone that day. She never let me explain about my phone problem when she knew I had serious phone problems because of something very personal to me.
I called and left a message on her office phone that night asking her to reconsider, that Survivor really didn’t know the real me. I haven’t done any more or less than most other real diehard dreamers. But, like I said before Gloria had sprouted wings and was happy again and was going to let Survivor know what a mistake they had made LOL! At least that is what I believed. LOL!
Remember, as I said before I had lost my sister and was probably truly not over her loss. I put on this big front that I was happy go lucky Gloria and could handle anything. Truly I was at the end of my line and I was mad at life, mad at Lynne Spillman, and all I wanted was my big dream. I said before, that this phone call from Lynne Spillman probably truly came at the worst part of my life, but as the saying goes that’s life and you have to handle what comes to you, whether you like it or not. I didn’t handle the “NO” from Lynne Spillman well at all. Little did I know at that time but everything I did was going to backfire and make things evern worst for me and my big dream to get on Survivor. I wasn’t ever going to be blessed with a second chance to get on Survivor, and I wasn’t going to be able to prove my real self or be forgiven for my drive and antics to get on the show. Everything I did, backfired and I am going to have to live with that busted dream forever.
If the truth ever be told I never did anything that bad trying to get my way. I sent Lynne flowers again saying this time would you consider changing your mind and letting me prove the real me to you and Survivor. I got funny and released balloons with challenges to anyone who could change her mind and get me an interview that I would bless them with $500.00. This got to WTKR news and they put me on top of their news building with this story releasing balloons and delivering the message. I sent in newspaper clippings of what happened after this airred on the news. Somebody gave me a mercedes who found the story funny. I sent that article to Lynne and Mark Burnett and ask them to autograph my car. I had been miserable with death for 4 years and I was cutting loose as the saying goes and at the same time destroying my chance to ever get on Survivor. I use to find money at a business I once owned and I even sent the paperwork and told them to get the big wig to go collect their free money at California Unclaimed Funds department. Lynne called me back mad twice saying stop what you are doing. Mark Burnett is mad at you. No, Mark Burnett was mad at her for opening up the heart strings of a woman with a big dream who was open and alive and hurt at the same time. He didn’t want to deal with the crazy and fun antics of a woman who had finally seen the light of laughter and humor. The money thing I sent in never was understood and isn’t understood to this day. Hey world, hey big shots, there’s free money out there you don’t know about it. Go claim it. The bigger you are the more you travel the more you might have and not even know it. I knew the big shot friend of Mark Burnett’s and told him to forward the information on to that individual. That was a really bad thing for little ole me to do. Instead of making jest of all this they took everything I did and just put me in a file of Nut cases. I even wrote a letter to Lynne saying I probably had been obsessive about things I wanted in life, and maybe i said obsessive disorder, but the truth is I don’t have any disorders. A few months ago I e-mailed Lynne asking if I could talk to her. She e-mailed me back with her number and I called and we talked, and I can tell you now that she does think I’m wacked so I went ahead and did the wacky thing I did which was tell her what I called her for in the first place LOL Hell, we were at the point of no return for me and my dream so what the hell did I care what she thought of me. She said I was the biggest wannabee Survivor on the face of the earth but that I would never be on the Survivor Reality show because I wrote her a letter saying I have BI-POLAR disorder. Well fans I want you to know I have never written her a letter saying I have bi-polar disorder, but may have written saying I have an obsessive personality and maybe put disorder behind it lol Who can remember everything they write when they have lost their sister, and their dam biggest dream at the same time. It’s a hell of a note that, that letter is being held over my head as being a nut forever after the tragedies I had been through. Who cares if I am driven or even slighty obsessive over something I want. I have been driven and obsessive about every sport, and job I have had in my life and that is why my resume of live is unique. I excelled in all sports, and I was top in all my jobs as a cop, bounty hunter, car repo-lady and go-go-dancer. Heck, I am probably the only woman in America who was a go-go-dancer and bounty hunter at the same time. When I use to go-go dance I would actually be seeking out clients on the run from bondsmen. They would walk into the establishments I danced at many times and I was functioning with 2 jobs in one. I would entertain them and be catching my man on the run at the same given time. I was making double time as the saying goes. LOL But, it was my unique idea and it worked well for many years. The Bondsmen loved me working for them! (All you diehard fans have been very devoted to me and have wanted the true story and why, so now you have it! I’m sorry, but I will Never be on Survivor, but I want all you diehards to know that I have tried with all the energy and faith that I have in me to change their opinion of me and give me a chance. I have never given up on my dream and I have kept faith that maybe someday their opinion of me would change, but it hasn’t and it won’t change. SORRY FANS!!)
There is much more to this story, but I don’t even care to go over it all, but I will tell you that I have surfaced out of my shell. Survivor may consider me a real NUT case but it’s their loss because I know the real me. Survivor and the WORD “NO” to my dream made me fight again for things in life. I have never liked anybody telling me “NO” to my dreams. My “NO” just came at a bad time in my life and everything backfired. I can’t undo what they truly think of me, but I can tell you this. It’s better to be where I am now verses the tragedy of 2 years ago when I got that “NO” said to me.
When I went on a charity run with the Survivors, we had a terrible tragedy occur. I mentioned why don’ t you call Lynne Spillman and see if she has connections about making something better on this charity run since you are a Survivor. That one Survivor said I would never call Lynne Spillman and bother her. Remember we are on a charity run to raise money for Foster Children and these Survivors are on the run. No, this survivor wanted to be on an all star show in the future and didn’t want to get on the bad side of Lynne Spillman. This Survivor cared more for theirself than that charity run. What I am trying to say is that I have been mad at Lynne Spillman for years but I don’t hate her. But, I truly am not afraid to call her if I want to. After all I e-mailed her and ask if I could call and talk to her about something and she let me. I don’t just dial the phone and say hey Lynne it’s me Gloria Query Biggest loser in Survivor history. I just don’t call out of the blue and say here I am. I respect her position and what she has to do. I want to really just scream at her for her position about me and her belief about me but what dam good will that do. But all of you have been really wanting to know the true story of why I am never going to be on Survivor. The truth is I made a bad impression during a bad time in my life and they think I am a “NUT’ who has bi-polar disorder, acording to Lynne Spillman. I have never been able to disprove that belief or prove myself any different to Lynne Spillman, or Mark Burnett because I have never been given the chance. My boyfriend was standing in the backyard a few months ago when I spoke to Lynne and he couldn’t believe what I told her. Some of what I told her is personal but she can let that cat out of the bag if she ever chooses’s to do so but not I. But, I started laughing, saying I do not have Bi-polar disorder and don’t have any disorder for that matter. She said I want to be on Survivor more than any person on the face of the earth but “YOU WILL NEVER BE ON SURVIVOR” because of this bi-polar disorder letter I wrote. As a casting director I can’t let you be on Survivor because of it. Give me a break Lynne, You have had people with disorders on the show, the McNulty girl who backed out was chosen and she had disorders or phobias LOL! Psychological testing is for people you need to know things about so don’t tell me that bunch of bunk! I am not getting on Survivor because you messed up with me in a phone converstation, and now because of it Mark Burnett thinks I am a nut! You calling me probably cornered you into a bad situaton because I am a woman with a lot of drive and I went for the gusto when I wanted what I want. But I have proven to be real and tell it like it is to you. You have never been truthful with me or given me the chance to prove the real me, so thats where me and Lynne Spillman stand. I will never be a fan on the show and I have to live with it every day because I crossed a woman who got mad at me and now I am black balled forever from my dream. Mark Burnett will never give me the time of day because of my drive and antics. But, they know I am smart and driven and diehard fans I have become a writer and I avoided all the questions of this story for 2 years so now you have it.
I respect Mark Burnett, but I will never have a dream because of bad timing. I respect Lynne Spillman in most ways, but she still angers me in the arena of some things and only she knows what that is. I’ve proven to be a better sport than most folks when the dream is lost, but I have spoken highly of Mark Burnett, Lynne Spillman and the Survivor show because I am loyal to the thought that it is the greatest reality show ever created for tv!
I have proven my loyalty in writing and in my ideas last year to keep the show running. Fans I did everything I could to be a good sport, but you wanted the true story so there it is. BY Gloria Query gloriasroom@aol.com remember my motto “Humor is Healer of All Sorrows!”
But, to be honest with you I would enjoy sitting across the table drinking a soda, with Lynne Spillman, knocking knuckles with ideas I think are great for the show! What is a girl to do??? I could tell Lynne anything!! Lynne______________________________________ fill in the sentence girl!
Calls will be going out any day now and may have already gone out. Good Luck to 800 people who will be granted an interview for the next Survivor Reality Show. Whatever you do, be yourself and don’t put on any airs! Good Luck Diehards! And Thank You Lynne Spillman for bringing me out of my shell, letting me sprout my wings of humor. Your call did do that for me!!!